o.k. today is friday... and it june 2nd. amazing huh...
gosh.. its SOOOOO interesting watching dust settle.. not!
i seriously never thought i'd live to see this day man. So many things have happened recently...
like my xams etc.. and. him..
sometimes i'd really like to scream.. but somehow, smth is always wrng.. like there's no time, no space or i have to finish what i have to do. till this monday i was on the line le..
i knew that all it takes is a gentle push and " wheee" i'd fly off the edge. and i did.
i juz snapped.
hearing his voice, so full of reasons, so un- him and him so devoid of feeling for me.. it was like he was addressing his grandma for heaven's sake.
am i so unvaluable??? am i simply too clingy? or am i just a fool?
nth is right for me.. i've lost my closest friends.. and it hurts so much.. i've "lost" the guy i love so much..
nobody really cares whether i'm dead or alive yeah?
like my ring.. i treasure it so mucch cuz he gave it to me.. but does he treasure those i gave him??
my life is ruined.. but i knw i wont like anthr guy. for a long time.
and my frens are my life.
I want you to know that I miss you so.
♥
