Friday, November 09, 2007
@1:05 AM
Today is the Hong Kong meeting again!! Yes!!! I can't wait for the 19th!!!! I think I'm gonna be wearing this Indian thing ethnic thing for this cultural thing =) So fat. The fats are going to be pouring out. Euch. The image is disgusting. Have to get something for my Hong Kong buddy though.. Hmm. What in the world will my buddy like?? Difficult, difficult. Tomorrow will be the parents meeting thing for my Hk trip. Ah bored. Busy looking at pretty girls blogs and Friendster. Like what the hell.. The whole world no more ugly girls (except me, i fugly and fat and all that) already is it?!?! All that i went to, the girls are eye poppingly gorgeous. And they are the NORMAL girls in secondary school or poly. wow. Is it normal that for all the girls i viewed, practically all of them have bambi eyes and slim yet sexy bodies?? I sound morbid. I sound so les. But not my fault, there's practically zero good looking guys around anymore. Ok. Back to girls. How can someone who's 15 look sooooooooooo pretty and old?!?! geeze. Envy envy. Bloody envy. SIGH. Is there no more normal looking girls like me around any more!!! Grr. Somehow or other, Is there any reason why on the streets there is no pretty girls?? Or maybe girls with amazing backs, but looks damn scary in the front?? But on the net all look SOOOOO hawt and beautiful???Hmm. And what if someone who looks like she's 20 or so is actually 15 plus??? If she look like she's 20 now, what will she look like when she IS 20??? Huhhhhh. Confounding. See. I feel like some old hag stuck in the middle of being 17 and looking like someone's mother.I wish wish wish wish wish wish wish wish with all my heart that I can be beautiful.. Ok. this is crazy wishing on my part. I can never be. Hai hai hai hai hai. All the trees outside will soon drop all their leaves....
Ok. Done. Bye.
I want you to know that I miss you so.
♥
